Thursday 9 October 2008

Nerves

After a month out fasting,
yesterday I returned to sparring.
And what a fight, as it tends to be.

From the moment it hits 6,
time to leave the office,
to the second it strikes 8,
time to step into the ring,
my head brawls.

"Too much work on",
"Not feeling well today",
"First a few lighter sessions...
to get back into shape",
the voices ring.

Right until the first punch is thrown
and the negative energy quashed...
for another week.



Good thing my mum is away for a few days.
She doesn't like me wearing red!

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Far too dangerous, why do people turn towards such vile sports?
Are you punishing yourself for something?

adil said...

I step into the ring,
rest my back against the corner,
take a deep breath,
look straight ahead,
nodding in respect,
I make my thoughts clear:
"Kick me in the ribs.
Punch me in the nose.
Make my day."
That's me being social.
Sad, I know.
Vile?
Perhaps it is as they say,
love is blind.

adil said...

> Are you punishing yourself for something?

Yes. For all my weakness.

adil said...

A selection of quotes taken from 'Fight Club'. Chapter 6 is awesome. The rest, quite lewd at times. Don't pick it up as a recommendation from me!

"... you're trapped in you're lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you...

If you don't know what you want, you end up with a lot you don't."

"After a night in fight club, everything in the real world gets the volume turned down. Nothing can p*ss you off. Your word is law, and if other people break that law or question you, even that doesn't p*ss you off...

Fight club gets to be your reason for going to the gym and keeping your hair cut short and cutting your nails. The gyms you go to are crowded with guys trying to look like men, as if begin a man means looking the way a sculptor or an art director says...

Most guys are at fight club because of something they're too scared to fight. After a few fights, you're afraid a lot less."

Anonymous said...

Did the prophet pbuh fight to punish himself?

:) Dude, just remember you're a role model. I really don't understand this part of you... is this like when one of the religious guys worried about arrogance and went to clean the toilet to bring back humility?

adil said...

> Did the prophet pbuh fight to punish himself?

Ouch! ... though I did see that one coming.

> Dude, just remember you're a role model.

I hope not. In fact, I really discourage that. I am not happy with me. I definitely would not recommend anyone else to be like me. Maybe that is the only one thing to learn (aspire to) from me: don't be content with yourself.

> is this like when one of the religious guys worried about arrogance and went to clean the toilet to bring back humility?

I see your point (I think), though it was a question: beat your ego, not your body. Right?

Anonymous said...

A role model without the pedalstal. No one is perfect.

Without stepping on toes isn't this type of reasoning what leads to some of our shia brothers and sisters beatings themselves for ashura?

Anonymous said...

I've just read that Umar (radiya Allahu 3anho) used to wrestle. I stand down.

Wayfarer said...

In order to beat ones ego, one must forgo self-direction, if you wish to defeat your ego, then don’t plot your course of action, for it’s a course to self-destruction!

adil said...

Anonymous, the Prophet (SAWS) wrestled!

Wayfarer, don't make things more complicated than they need to be. As for pledging to follow the guidance of a particular Sheikh, which I believe you are alluding to, whilst this is meritorious it ultimately depends on the follower following the guidance/advice of his Sheikh.

Wayfarer said...

I was simply saying in certain things we need to give up control, know that He (Allah) is in control, why resist?

Is not Allah the Best of Guardians?

Have you seen the one who has taken himself as god besides Allah?